Sense of Being – Part 2: “I am”
In my last post, I wrote about the sense of being. In this post, I want to continue my train of thought by writing about the “I am” thought.
The “I am” is the first thought. It is the origin of separation or of duality: of the witness or observer. Even in its most elemental form that exists prior to language, even before the verbalization of “I am,” there is the sense of being that comes with being attuned with that which arises both internally (e.g., thoughts) and from the environment. That sense of being might be unconscious or it might be conscious. I differentiated the two by referring to having an unconscious sense of being as just being or beingness.
At some point in time, the “I am” becomes internalized and articulated; when this occurs, the sense of having an independent self arises: call it the ego; the sense of a personal identity; ‘or the me’. However, prior to identifying with one's 'me', there is just the sense of a witness or observer, or an 'eye' or an 'I'.
So, let’s break this down a little.
When a human baby is born, consciousness and beingness both arise simultaneously.
At some point in time, the “I am” thought arises. Again, this might not necessarily be verbally articulated, but may take the form of the separation of beingness into that of an observer and that which is observed, including the sense of being.
Later on, identification occurs, at which point the “I am” becomes attached to an idea, as in “I am Vince”.
And from here, the downward spiral begins, because identification with a name and a set of beliefs is the cause of suffering. (see https://www.vinji.org/single-post/2017/10/29/The-Ignoble-truths-from-Fred-Davis)